I am enjoying the mundane. The past week was not as hectic, and it was not boring either. I managed to power through this webinar that I hosted, and even acquired an admirer because of that (let me celebrate this rarity). The usual work process took effect, which is to complain and rant and vent out, and then do the job. I have checked various things off my list and I was able to finish the task that’s been causing me anxiety for weeks. I was depriving myself of things I typically enjoy as a punishment for missing tasks, and now I can finally indulge and try to be the best version of myself again.
The weekend was also a great help to my well-being today because I spent it with my favorite family members, and we even got to dine together. Staying away off the internet or keeping it to a minimum really helped me enjoy my time away from the city. Having a place that surrounds me with nature helps me slow down the time and relax every time. It forces me to do things I don’t normally do at home, which also makes me feel good about myself. I love this. I am grateful for this.
Before writing this entry I read the article about being a middle class millionaire, and it made me realize how “okay” my life is. The struggles I’m having right now are normal for a twenty-something year-old (child) adult and now I even kind of feel proud of myself. I keep reinventing my skills and I am also rediscovering the things I used to be good at. I also take the liberty to explore other things that I could actually learn, and I am brave to keep trying. It’s comforting to know that I seem to be on the right path. It’s different from reading it from inspirational quotes online, or being told that I’m doing alright for my age, because I am actually seeing my progress from an outsider’s point of view. It makes me see how much I’ve grown, and the positive feeling it gives me inspires me to keep on keeping on.
I don’t want to merely focus on what gives me struggle, I want to also remember that there will be days when I’ll feel good about myself and it’s worth looking forward to.
This was indeed a happy weekend.
